When the World Says You’re Winning, I Just Want to Cry

গতকালরাতেও। স্ক্রিনটা “অভিনন্দন! 487ক্রেডিটস্‌” -এর আলোয়। अমराओ-শব্দ, Ολυμπস্‌-এর thunderclap। 心跳…কিছুটা।

তারপর—শূন্যতা。

আমি screen-টা fix kore dekhi।

উৎসব?

শুধু exhaustion.

আমি game-টা ruin korte चाहি ना, or preach करते चाहি नা।

কিন্তু if you’ve ever felt this way—strangers online celebrate you while you quietly break inside—you’re not alone.

The Myth of Constant Victory

প্ল্যাটফরমটি 90% win rate, instant reward, ‘divine luck’-এর mechanics promote. Fantasy: every move perfect; every loss temporary; every win earned through skill.

But what they don’t show? The player who stays up until 3 a.m., refreshing feed after losing streak — whispering: Maybe next time.

What they don’t track? Dopamine crash after big win — no matter how much you earn, it never fills the quiet ache between scrolls.

Behind the Glowing Screen: Real Players Like Me

I used to run a youth mental wellness group before going full-time into digital storytelling. Now I watch player forums daily—not for trends or data points, but for voices that say things like:

“I won today… why do I feel worse than yesterday?” “Everyone calls me lucky. But all I want is someone to ask if I’m okay.”

One user shared her story: she started during lockdowns as escape from anxiety attacks. Over time became ‘top tier’ on several leaderboards. Her mom called her ‘a natural.’ But inside? She’d cry after logging off because she couldn’t tell anyone what she really felt.

This isn’t failure. it’s humanity showing up in digital spaces where it’s too often disguised as performance.

Why Strategy Isn’t Enough (Even With High Win Rates)

The platform promises high win rates (90%-95%) like holy guarantee. Yes — statistically more likely to win than lose. But statistics don’t account for:

• Weight of expectation — even self-imposed — when labeled ‘elite.’
• Fear of losing status once people start watching closely.
• Ritual of pushing forward just because you can, not because you want to. i’ve watched players set limits: $10/session, 15 min max… only to ignore them during winning streaks thinking: Just one more round. The real risk isn’t losing money—it’s losing yourself in trying so hard to be seen strong.

What Works (From Someone Who’s Been There)

iif feeling overwhelmed—competition or craving recognition—try this: nPause before clicking → Ask yourself: Am I doing this for joy or fear? The answer matters more than any algorithm ever could. The platform offers “sacred limits,” but true boundaries come from self-awareness—not settings menus. The same goes for rewards: free spins and bonus rounds feel exciting… until routine numbs emotion rather than sparks delight. Let yourself play without chasing results sometimes. Let your hand hover over bet button… then pull back out of curiosity instead of compulsion. n## We Need More Than Games – We Need Spaces That See Us nGames will always be part of our lives—especially young adults navigating identity under pressure. But we must stop pretending fun equals happiness just because we’re winning on screen.nWe need communities where saying ‘I’m struggling’ doesn’t mean being labeled weak—but being recognized as brave enough to speak up.nIn my work now—at ReFGB—I advocate for exactly that kind of space: where players aren’t ranked by stats alone, built on presence,rtheir honesty,rtheir willingness to say:r>n> “Today wasn’t good.rI didn’t perform well.rBut I showed up anyway.“rnnThat’s real strength.rAnd maybe that’s worth more than any god-given bonus round.rnrHave you ever felt this way? rDid your biggest victory leave you emptier than expected? rDrop your story below—no judgment,rjust room for healing together.