When the World Calls You a Winner, I Just Want to Cry: A Gamer’s Quiet Battle with Pressure

আমি সেইরকম একটি রাতের কথা ভাবি—ফোনটা ‘#1’-এর ঘোষণা, ‘ট্রেন্ডিং’-এর notification.চালকগুলিরা ‘জয়’-এর झলक,কিন্তু…আমি?শুধুই ‘নিঃশব্দ’।

আমি orginaly youth counselor;এখনও players-দের inner world-এ reflect kori।

‍‍‍‍‘জয়’-এর मुखौटा

鬥雞-এ, where rank up and virality matter most, there’s an unspoken rule: win → smile. But behind that avatar? Often silence.

One player wrote: “I won three matches. Friends said I’m unstoppable. But inside—I just wanted to disappear.”

That line broke me.

Winning doesn’t mean joy—it means performance.

‘প্রদর্শন’-চাপের मूल्य

We live in era where every action is quantified: wins, likes, followers. In competitive games like 斗鸡, success isn’t skill—it’s performance art.

But here’s what no one says: the moment you’re called ‘winner’, you stop being human.

Emotions must match stats—excited, loud, proud. Doubt? Weakness. Hesitation? Failure.

This isn’t fun—it’s stress disguised as victory.

Research (2023) shows 68% of competitive gamers feel emotional exhaustion after winning—even if they won. Their brain sees victory as stress because identity = outcome—not experience.

‘জয়’→‘অস্তিত্ব’: Narratives Rewrite

What if we redefine success? Instead of “How many wins?”, ask:

• Did you enjoy the rhythm?
• Did your heart beat with purpose?
• Did you feel seen—even if no one clapped?

I asked this in our community—and people responded not with pride… but relief. The player Luna shared: “For months I played only for rewards. Last week I quit mid-game because my hands shook—and cried without shame.” The next day she wrote: “Today I played for five minutes just because it reminded me of my grandma’s tea ritual.” The real victory wasn’t rank—it was presence over performance.

Your Game Is Not Your Identity

The truth is simple but radical: you don’t need to be great to be worthy.you don’t need praise to matter.you don’t need a trophy to belong—not even if everyone calls you ‘the golden fighter.’ every time you play, it can be yours—not for show,because it feels true,because your soul says yes,to that moment,to yourself,to this breath,to this game—just as it is.